I try to act cool
pretend like I can’t feel
smilin’ like a fool
can’t believe she’s real
her eyes
her cute little nose
her lips and her smile
it felt so good to get lost for a while
we laughed together
we cried together
we felt together
we fuckin lived together
together we lived
but I was scared didn’t have enough to give
but thought no one cared
so I tried to
move on
play it off almost forgot about it and for that i hate myself
what am I doing
why am I letting her slip
who is she seeing
fuck
why lately, she hasn’t been the same
why do all our dreams seem to fade away
need to get my shit together
want us to last forever
so I
I called her
I met her
I talked and talked and kept talking
just kept saying shit, totally ignoring her
til’ she grabbed me
then I calmed down
and now I could see
how much I was missing her warmth
Was happy for the moment, thought everything was fine, I explained myself, and now she’s back
She slowly let go of me and it hit me as she whispered
“I don’t love you anymore”
And i realised, i was late. Been around my homies too much, shouldn’t have played it cool, should have shown my feelings, should have done this and that. Why am i the type of person who always talks that “should have”, “could have”, “would have” stuff. Please tell me Self, why are you like this. You’re ruining my life, i fucking hate you. Piece of shi-
“It’s over.”
…
No!
This catastrophe might break me but at the end of the tunnel I won’t be empty.
There’s light in these eyes you could only see when you’ve died. You can’t see it, that’s why you’re gone. I should have seen this shit all along. It took me to come back as another person to write this song. But it’s all gone now the pain I’m free. I’m back in love but it’s only with me.
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